Definitively Infinitive

Rosie. Twenteen. Criminology Student.
Ginger Boys. Orange & Mango Squash. Acoustic Guitar. Elvis Presley. Winter. Old Music. Empathy. Friendship. Morrissey. Cats. Laughing. Shopping. Cardigans. Sam Cooke. The 80's. Smiling. Broccoli. Enthusiasm. Veganism. Vimto. Maturity. Snow. Peace. Faith. Endurance. LOVE.

I’d just like to voice that I’m a fat babe and I own an Abercrombie and Fitch hoodie, mens size large. IM FAT AND IM WEARING YOUR BRAND. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. that is all.

Genuinely unsure of where my life is heading.

I mean, I have literally no idea what I even want anymore! I guess I want a career because it seems the most logical thing to do, alongside obviously being a necessity- I do need to earn some form of money at some point after all. But I’m in a spiral of doubt and uncertainty in regards to the direction I should go cause I just don’t know what will make me happy. I don’t know if anything will make me happy.

All I can see right now is that the best three years of my life are coming to an end. I can’t see any further than living with my friends and living independantly.

I’ve always been quite struck on the idea that getting a degree and entering into a rewarding career is the best thing for me but I’m really starting to question it. I know I’m going to do it, I have no doubt, but I’m not sure I will be happy even after acheiving all of my goals in this respect.

I’m not for one second suggesting that I want to start a family or anything, I couldn’t be any further away from considering that as an option right now! I do feel, however, a little jealous of my old school friends who are content in their relationships and living in their own houses. This is something I have no prospect of acheiving and yet, without sounding ego-centric and bitchy, I have done alot more with my life and strived to acheive more than them.

I’m just stuck in a depressive little rut, resultant of my disdain towards the idea of having to move back home and leave all this behind.

University has opened my eyes to a bigger and better world and I’m not sure I want to regress backwards into my old life.

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